woensdag, augustus 31
zaterdag, augustus 27
vrijdag, augustus 26
The room is a LOT bigger than I had expected thinking of 16m2, and it has windows and it's painted white with fake wood linoleum floor.. And as I told, only 2 minutes away from school and from the trainstation. Aahhhh I am so happy about this :D because I really couldn't take the loneliness in the room I have now.. I'm in a house all alone, there are people in the building during the day sometimes, but not people I can talk to (since it's a doctor practice) and brr it made me so miserable being there alone.. I couldn't stand the thought of being there another year.
donderdag, augustus 25
dinsdag, augustus 23
I nearly fainted afterwards though. Haha. No idea how that happened.
Indeed, nothing impressive, I was out in less than 30 minutes. And it took me 4 years to get there. I should totally learn a lesson out of this. But it's more probable I won't.
I will probably post twice today, since after my major operation I will be feeling so lucky to come out alive, I will change my life and write down my whole life-story since it is most likely to flash in front of my eyes about half past 4 this afternoon.
well, well, well..
maandag, augustus 22
I can already imagine all the comments that'll be made OOOMGMGMGMGMGMG a baby KITTY ON THE TELEVISIOOOHOOONNN ahhhwwww but well OGM NOOO IT WAS A DOG BUT STILL CUUUUTTTEEEE normally I really do take care, I use sun lotion, cover my skin up, hardly ever go outside in the daylight 'cause I'm a vampire anyway.
zondag, augustus 21
The saddest part of a broken heart
Isn't the ending so much as the start
The tragedy starts from the very first spark
Losing your mind for the sake of your heart
zaterdag, augustus 20
Okay, so, I used to have 3 up there, and now I have 3, but they're all going through one hole. Which doesn't hurt, and didn't hurt. I was so bored with the 1 ring going through.. it was a terrible work to put them in and close them though :| I always thought it was a horrible job putting 1 in and closing it, and now, when I had one, I had 2 to go still. But 2 of them were kind of easy, they have a ball with a hole and you have to put the other end in it? So it's better than the one where you have a joint and you have to put that little piece in the hole. Yes? Still getting it? God, though, this one hurt even after.. 3 years after I got it, couldn't sleep on that side for a long while :/ probably the reason why I let the other 2 grow closed again (grow closed? ... oh well).
okay, and these refer to the title, for I my hands start itching when I'm bored. I need to either cut my hair, dye it, cut away at clothes, or pierce myself. I had done this one before, also myself, but it got all gross and the yellow crappy fluid started coming out (hope you weren't eating anything at this moment) (if so my most sincere apologies) and it didn't get any better, and so I took it out. But then, last year, you know, Mco and I broke up and after a while I still felt kind of a little bit shitty and then I got bored and my hands started itching (deadly combination, something will get irreversibly broken/cut or, well, pierced). So I tried it again. First time it failed, after I got the needle all through and out again, I couldn't get anything through the hole again. So, a few days later I tried again. And I succeeded (with lots of blood and agony because dear lawd it hurts to put a needle through your ear)(even though there is only flesh there).
Then it took me a fucking long terrible agonizing while to put the silver thingy through and aahhrrr but then I got it and even though I couldn't touch my ear, or sleep on that side for a while. Now it's all okay (there is a little yellowish fluid somewhere in the story a while back but it is okay now) (which is kind of a miracle since I never used anything to clean the needle or the silver thingy except for saliva).
donderdag, augustus 18
Haven't you noticed my ways?
Haven't you seen my face?
Haven't you noticed my ways?
I once fell in love with a boy
can you see the clouds hanging?
- he's dead
He died because I murdered him
because he told me to
it was the right thing to do
But I loved him
I once fell in love with a girl
can you see the skies filling?
- I'm dead
I died because she murdered me
because I told her to
it was the one thing that I couldn't do
But I loved her
I once buried a man
He was the only one I loved
and even at his funeral his mother told me
I was, never worthy enough
of his love
But I loved him
I once got buried by a women
who told me she would love me til I died
but she loved me even after that
because when I turned around
she was lying next to me
and not planning on leaving
Oh I love her
I love her
Oh I love him
I love him
waawwwwwwwwww 2 LRYICS IN ONE BLOGGGGGG!!!! total heartattack now.
woensdag, augustus 17
Like, if you would have a conversation like this:
dinsdag, augustus 16
All truly sincerely yours,
ps. probably weird through lack of sleep, excuzi.
maandag, augustus 15
Flowerpower belt! And because I'm a Dutch girl in heart and kidneys (love using Dutch verbs and translating them in English) I'll tell you it was only 50 cents.
Yellow H&M dress, 2 euros I think. Neil Gaiman short stories book 1 or 1,50
New old mug, found this in Workum for 1 e. Pin/brooch something doggie, my grannie was rummaging through some drawers and found it and gave it to me :)
All the pendants I found this summer! And a black magnetic locket.
FINALLY a black wool circle scarf! one fitty. And 5 beautiful lion hangers for up on the way. Isn't he a cutie.
But waaahh it was SO smelly and all kinds of gross green black stuff in between te thingies, I first poked out all that stuff with a paperclip, then tried to clean it with a wet q-tip. And eventually I dipped it in a bowl of pure alcohol, and then in a bowl (these were all really very little tiny little bowls) of a random cleaner we had with a nice smell. And now it's kind of okay, but still there is some hint of goat/cow shit and school gymnastic ropes and mats. Which is, as you might imagine, not a very nice odeur.
And a real fur coat, made of I think this little chap
and probably about 80 of his friends. Makes me feel uneasy still. ..
Oh and a blue sweater which I forgot to take a picture of. Oh, and I didn't take pictures of the coats because, with my phone I don't think it would show how they really look. So I'm still thinking of searching the battery charger of my camera.
Aaaaaand I think that was all..
donderdag, augustus 11
To anyone reading; what do you think of buying second-hand fur?
dinsdag, augustus 9